A Letter from My Heart..

It’s been over two years now… and I’m just now beginning to come out of the fog.

Grief has a way of showing up in every corner of your life—quietly, unexpectedly, and sometimes all at once. Losing my mother was, and still is, crippling in ways I never saw coming. Her absence touched every part of me: how I think, how I create, how I move through the world.

And I’ll be honest—it's been hard to get back to myself. To create. To dream. To feel again. But through it all, I’ve held on. Through The Most High's grace, through love, and through the quiet strength of those around me, I’m trying to shake back. Snap back. Find my way out of the heaviness and into the light.

To all of my customers who are still here—thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for your patience, for your understanding, and for sticking beside me. Just hold on a little longer… my creativity is warming up again. The spark is coming back. And I have new things on the way that I can't wait to share with you.

It starts with small steps. Like finally cleaning up the website. Getting things in order. And, after all these years, starting this blog—something I've been meaning to do forever. A space where you can get to know me beyond the beads and designs. A place for my thoughts, my hopes, my dreams.

Me & My Love

And I can’t go without mentioning the two people who have walked beside me every step of this journey: my son, now 15, and my Love. They have shown up with love, patience, and grace in ways I didn’t know I needed. They’ve held me up when I couldn’t stand on my own. And for them, I am so deeply grateful.

My Son

So here I am—still healing, still finding my way. But I’m here. And I’m creating again.

Piece by piece, I’m rebuilding the parts of me that grief tried to take. And in the process, I’m learning that healing doesn’t mean forgetting. It means honoring. It means transforming pain into purpose, and memory into movement.

Every design I bring to life now carries more than style—it carries intention, love, and legacy. My hope is that when you wear something from Ahava By Ny’zaiyah, you feel that love. That it wraps around you like a blessing. That it reminds you of your own strength, beauty, and story.

So to everyone who’s been walking with me—thank you. For the grace, for the patience, and for giving me space to come back when I was ready. And I am ready.

This is only the beginning.

There is so much more to come.

And I can’t wait to share it with you.

With all my love and gratitude,

Ny’zaiyah

Ahava By Ny’zaiyah